July 22 -- Everyone took off tonight after dinner to go to Shelley and Mike's bonfire. but I stayed home. I was freezing for one -- they keep the ac really low (cold) at this beach house. even when we try to change it the temp seems to drift back to the lower setting. Also, I am freezing because of all the sun I am getting. And also, I just needed to have a few hours to myself. I have not been on this computer at all and I needed to do a little research about lesson plans and stuff.
connor is freaking me out when he talks about all of the assignments he had in his English class last year. I am spending this vacation reading all of the novels I am teaching this year and I have a lot of ideas and thoughts but other than reading the novels and some of my notes, I have nothing specific. So I have to rely on help from other teachers and also on my own teaching abilities. I keep trying to calm my myself down by saying I will be fine and will figure it all out as I go but still...I get really, really nervous every once in awhile. I am like, ughhh, can I really do this? The answer is yes but i do know it will be a completely different world. tonight the kids were teasing me at dinner talking about how they wouldn't acknowledge me in school. And I thought, how different will out relationship really be? will I have the energy to laugh with my kids or will I always be nagging and yelling at them because we are all so exhausted?
Lord help me. Please :)
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