June 22 -- This date will forever go down in my memory for a number of reasons. I reached for a goal. And heard if I got it. And I wonder...is it the right goal for me? Have I totally screwed up my life? I have a nice, somewhat complicated but still manageable life. I get enough sleep, eat decently enough, have energy to go to the kids sports games, go to the gym, and still have a few hours for work. hmmmm. why rock the boat?
Yeah. Million dollar question for sure. Why change?? Why? I am a walking stomach ache right now, a vision of emotional chaos and indecision -- I don't know what I want and for someone who designs and knows how to pick the right furniture, color, book etc... it annoys the hell out of me when I can't figure out my next step. I guess as a control freak, I want it to be right in my hand where I can turn it over and look at it. But you can't do that with the future. I really have to trust in God on this one. Seriously. Lord help me. Please.
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