June 9 -- Today was Luke's last official day at the high school -- his last day as a public school student. As a senior, he didn't have to take exams if he maintained an A average or if he took an AP class. So he is done.
And is already asking to go out -- over friends etc.
Because he left at 4:30 pm already, we told him to be home at 9pm. At 9 he called to say that his phone died and could he stay until 9:30pm. At 9:30pm, he called to say his car was stuck in a ditch which runs along the driveway at A's house, the friend who was hosting the casual gathering of kids. Her father, apparently, was helping Luke get the car out. I called the cell he used at 10pm -- apparently he had just gotten out of the ditch and was now heading home. It's about a 15 minute ride from here. Maybe 20 minutes. And now I wait.
I hate this part; I really do. It's all normal, all part of life. I just cannot stand it. And he is only our first. Seriously, will I be more relaxed with Riley? I have no idea. Luke has always been one to kind of push the envelope. Maybe that is why I am a little more cautious, a little more anxious. That and yes, he is the first one to go through all of this. ughhhh.
I told Brian tonight. I don't want to let him go. I really don't. But then i do. I wonder, why does it have to be so damn complicated?! In the dark, I can see his headlights coming down the driveway. I say a prayer of thanks. One day at a time. One at at time. It's all I can do.
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